In loving memory...

My sweet little Callie made her way up to the Rainbow Bridge today. I knew something was going on with her the past couple of days. She was not eating, even her little treats that she loves so much. She was walking gingerly, as though she had a limp. After her stroke in August, which she recovered from so well, I knew everyday I had with her was a "bonus." I held her every chance that I got, and told her I loved her. Last night, as I was half asleep, half awake, she tried to jump onto the bed. She didn't make it, so I maneuvered over to the side and gave her a petting. She went half under the bed, and then grabbed my finger with her paws. She had a weak cry, which I guess was her saying goodbye to me. When I got up in the morning, I didn't see her around. I just assumed she was resting under the bed like she usually does. I came home from work for lunch, and after I finished eating I went into the bedroom to see if she wanted some treats. She was not under the bed, and after checking the other bedroom, I found her in my bedroom behind a large chair facing the corner. She was stretched out, with her mouth open. I could not see her breathing at all. I told John that I thought she was gone. We got a box to put her in, and when I lifted her up, she was already stiff. I started to cry a little, only because I was sad for any suffering she may have gone through. I already cried so much for her the first night that she had the stroke that I thought would take her life right then and there. She was a great cat, one of the loves of my life, and I will miss her dearly.
There is a service coming to take her for cremation. Her ashes will be put in a cedar box, with a name plaque, and a clay imprint will be made of her paw. So I will always be able to have her near me.

It's been a week already??

Time for an update, I guess. I was a little partied out, and really couldn't do much more than Tuesday at Streetbar. Did the karaoke thing, and talked with a few people there. Got to know a guy who was visiting from SF, he was very nice. I even got him to sing up on the stage. He finally told me toward the end of the night that Laz kept looking at me with such admiration. I couldn't really tell him what has happened and how I'm just not that much into Laz. Sweet guy, but the chemistry just isn't there.
I've been sticking to the workouts, but I'm not quite where I thought I should be. Can't get through all the reps on all the exercises. Triceps and especially military presses are a problem. I have started doing creatine and I bought some whey powder at TJ so that I can help my body bulk up. I was doing quite well on the 5K that I try to run every Friday. But my right knee started acting up and I had to walk the last full lap before the end of the course. Once I stop running on it, it feels fine. Mr Blackberry was there, doing the stair climber. I finished before he did, and took my shower. Just as I was all dressed and about ready to go, he comes in to take his shower. I didn't want to be obvious and left shortly thereafter. I did catch his butt as he walked naked to the showers. I'm really attracted to him, but if he doesn't feel the same (maybe because he's straight?) then what can I do.
I finished pulling the rest of the weeds out of the easement on the cul-de-sac side of the property. Gorgeous day today, sunny and warm. I got too much sun, had to put aloe on my shoulders, back, and upper arms. Hope it saves the color. Tried to get sun on my legs, as they tend to look like whitefish when I wear shorts.
Took care of some personal grooming today, clipped my body hair so that it doesn't look so wild. My body is coming along, although it's not quite ready for the swimsuit issue of the International Male catalog.

Shameless...

Friday I spent pulling some more weeds. I went to the gym, did my workout. I decided to put off cardio because I followed the guy from the other day into the shower. He has the most amazing appendage. It's probably the largest one I have seen in person. He made no eye contact with me at all, so he's probably not interested.
I went home, and got ready to go to Kristina's going away party at Shakey's. It was very nice, and then we all went over to Streetbar, then Hunters. I danced at Hunters, and got so sweaty that I had to go out on the patio to cool off. I removed my shirt, and it felt so much better. I put it back on and went inside. More drinks, a trip to the stripper/dancer with Carol, and then more dancing. I got hot again, so went to the patio to cool off. I came back inside with my shirt off. I just felt better. After they poured Carol into a car to take her home, I went over to Streetbar. I was hanging out with Laz. Somebody he knows who is moving to Mexico was there, and he was telling me what I should do with my finances. Like I'm going to listen. I left around 0130, and when I got home made some spaghetti and meatless meatballs. I only had one slice of cheese pizza for dinner. Just not enough for me.
Saturday, I went to see Watchmen with Dan. We then went to Sherman's deli, where I had the veggie sandwich with cole slaw. Both were quite good. I went to the gym afterwards, and ran a 5K. I did it in just under 31 minutes. I went to take a shower, and had an admirer in the stall across from me. I don't know how these guys can "stand at attention" in a public place like that. My heart starts racing, and it's game over. The one guy from A4A who I used to see there all the time decided to strut around naked in front of me. It was just to much for me. I stopped by GNC on my way home to by some creatine. I will see if this helps with my workouts.

the party never stops

Let's see...
Had a lovely dinner with Dan, Cuqui, and John K. Went over to Hunter's afterwards, watched a little bit of the pool tournament. Didn't realize that one of the guys was on A4A. I did message him the next day, but that isn't going to go anywhere. Went over to Streetbar for karaoke, and it was dead there. Really, really dead. Doug, Andy's friend, was there and I hung out with him all night. He bought me drinks and shots. We made out at the bar. He said that he always liked me, but didn't think that he was my type. I grabbed his arm, put my fingers on his wrist, and proclaimed "you have a pulse, that's my type!" I ended up going back to my place, alone.
Next day, I went to the gym. Did really good on the machines, and made it through the program on the treadmill. Funny how the walking part can actually be harder to do than the running. Spotted an attractive guy in the free weight area. He was done with his work out just about when I was going from strength training to cardio. Went back to the locker room to get my MP3 player and water. He was undressed for the shower. He was stunning. Wow. Now I have a new obsession at the gym. And I think he is interested, but more on that later. Of course I'll probably never see him again since I'm going earlier this week due to my being on vacation.
Went home, pulled a couple of more weeds, had pasta for dinner. Around 2130, I went to Streetbar. It was packed! So much going on that night, and everybody ended up at the bar. We had 25 people on the karaoke rotation at one point. Doug, who I was making out with the night before, was now on a date with someone. It was weird, but Laz decided to make out with me in front of him. You know, it was a one-time thing and it didn't really mess with me. Then there was another guy who sat right next to me and really wanted me. He actually was telling people that he was my boyfriend. Managed to give him the slip later. And then there was another Doug, who I met many months ago, showing up at the bar. I told him some stuff about his family that he was amazed that I remembered. It was a very odd night. At one point, the first Doug told me we should dump our dates and go home with each other. I ended up going home with Laz to his place in Mountain Gate. He is a top, and I guess I am a virgin again. I really need to work on that. He is young, he actually came back for seconds. Amazing what nine years can do. He had to work in the morning, so we were able to sleep in until about 0930. He is very sweet, but I don't think there is enough chemistry there.

in the weeds

I've been pulling weeds for three days now. The rain that we got a couple of weeks ago caused so many weeds to grow up through any crack between the plastic underlayment on the lawn. My thumbs and forearms hurt. Yesterday I went to the gym, where I did my cardio first, did great, then did my weight training after my shower. I added five pounds, and couldn't do all my triceps extensions. Had to cheat on my bicep curls too. I think I need to supplement my diet with creatine. I was flexing in the mirror last night, and I do have arms now.
I went to Streetbar to relax, hang out, and sing some karaoke. It was a nice time and I closed the place down. Met a nice guy briefly. His name was Dennis, but people called him "Lucky." Had three beers, but they were spaced out so much that I didn't even get a buzz.
Today I will go out to dinner with some friends, and probably do more karaoke at Streetbar. It is my birthday, after all.